KP - F**K FOREVER!

4.14.2010 | |

DAY BY DAY BLUR BY BLUR MY LIFE GOES ON, BUT AT THE END WHAT DOES THIS ALL MEAN? THE PEOPLE THAT I USED TO CARE ALOT ABOUT SLOWLY DRIFTING AWAY, MY HIGH SCHOOL MIDDLE SCHOOL ELEMENTARY SCHOOL FRIENDS ALL SLOWLY GETTING MARRIED AND LOCKED DOWN BUT I AM STILL FLOATING AROUND LIKE A BAG WITHOUT DIRECTION, EVERYDAY I AM HUSTLING, RUNNING MARCHING FORWARD FOR A BETTER LIVING A BETTER LIFESTYLE BUT AT THE END WHAT DO I HAVE? IS SOME BROKEN MEMORIES AND PAIN FROM A VERY DEEP INNER SIDE OF MY HEART, IS IT ONLY ME THAT FEELS LIKE THIS OR PEOPLE IN GENRAL LIVE A PRETTY SAD LIFE? I DON’T KNOW WHY IS IT MAYBE I AM IN THIS EMPTY ROOM ALONE WITH A SUITE THAT OVERLOOKS THE RIVER OR IS IT BECAUSE I SECRETLY THINK THAT EVERYTHING I HAVE OR HAVE OWNED OR HAVE LOVED WILL SLOWLY SLIP AWAY LIKE EVERYTHING HAS IN THE PAST? WHY IS IT THE PEOPLE THAT I CARE ABOUT I NEVER HAVE THE BALLS TO TELL THEM AND THE PEOPLE THAT I AM SURROUNDED BY ARE ALL PEOPLE THAT I DRINK, PLAY, AND HAVE FUN WITH, BUT WHAT IS FUN TO ME ISN’T FUN ANYMORE. MAN I AM GETTING OLD, WHATS THE NEXT STEP? WHATS THE STEP BEFORE? HOW MANY MISTAKES DOES ONE HAVE TO MAKE FOR THEM TO REALIZE THEY ARE GOING DOWN THE RIGHT PATH OR THE WRONG PATH? IS THERE A RIGHT OR WRONG PATH? CHOICES EVERYDAY COMPILE OUR LIFE, OR IS IT FATE? WHAT IS THIS JOURNEY ALL ABOUT, IS IT TO BRING PAIN TO US FOR US TO REALIZE WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT TO US? WHY DO WE LOVE IF EVERYTIME WE LOVE IT DOESN’T LAST FOREVER AND SLOWLY JUST BRINGS US BACK TO PAIN AND SUFFERING? LONELY NIGHTS STARRING AWAY AT THE COMPUTER SCREEN, INSECURE MORNINGS MATCHED WITH HAZY EVENINGS. HOW DOES ONE STAY HAPPY? IS ONE LOVE PER LIFE ENOUGH? IS ONE GIRL PER YEAR NORMAL? IS A CLUB SANDWICH AT 2 AM SATISFYING? YES OR NO MAYBE SO BUT I KNOW ONE THING IS FOR SURE, LUCKY ME OR LUCKY STRIKE?